It’s true that everything comes together when you aren’t trying to make it. I spent years and years trying to figure out what kind of job and “career” I would have because I thought that was what I was supposed to do. Have a lifelong job and a place to go every day. A definite plan. It’s only since I’ve let go of that idea (it only took me about 15 years…) that I have ended up in an ideal situation. I have 3 different jobs, none of them involving an IRA or a plan, and it turns out this is just about the perfect situation for me. I’m teaching ESL with one company, French with community ed, and driving with Lyft. I just (15 minutes ago) found out about a ride sharing start-up that is for female-identified drivers and passengers. Yes, I signed up immediately. My plan after this post is to start making calls for She Runs. Then I’m running. I have time to do what I need to do for me and I am completely fulfilled by teaching and social justice work (I’m also a racial justice facilitator through the YWCA). I do still worry about retirement, but even that anxiety has value. I have the privilege and luxury of living in the moment, and in not thinking about next week if I don’t want to, or if I find it too overwhelming.
I’m having a really grateful day. I hope you are, too. If you need an infusion of positive, I just downloaded the Nico and Vinz album, and it’s full of great energy!