I’m starting a new challenge at the gym since I have eaten my way to self-hatred again. I’m using food to make my body repulsive, and therefore ignorable. Unappealing. Disgusting to old white guys.
I’m going to attempt to write more to work through it, and I’ve joined another 60 day challenge at the gym. I’ll write about The Crazy and how working out is going. I’m only writing today to get myself going.
Goals: Reach 1/2 pull up. Reach 24% body fat. Reconfigure my thinking about food-using it as fuel to reach a goal, as opposed to eating to feel safe.