Category Archives: The Crazy

The best problem I could have

Posted on 31/12/2022 by Sally

I alluded to growing up unsure of love in a previous post. When I was a kid, love was something that I could not count on-it was unreliable because it could go away at any time. It could be betrayed … Continue reading →

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Anxiety, the anti-love story.

Posted on 29/12/2022 by Sally

Introduction: There may be a thing that I might need to worry about sometime possibly in the distant future. Chapter 1: Disregard the tons of love and support surrounding me, doubt it all, believe The Anxiety when it says it’s … Continue reading →

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Fat as body armour

Posted on 14/02/2018 by Sally

I’m starting a new challenge at the gym since I have eaten my way to self-hatred again. I’m using food to make my body repulsive, and therefore ignorable. Unappealing. Disgusting to old white guys. I’m going to attempt to write … Continue reading →

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5 years sober

Posted on 30/08/2015 by Sally

Because I don’t have a sponsor and I don’t go to a support group, I usually forget my sobriety birthday: then Lumpy does something nice and reminds me. It turns out that August 22 is the day, and it’s a … Continue reading →

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Ever have one of those days?

Posted on 21/04/2015 by Sally

The one where you wake up and think you will start running again after time off due to cough, diminished lung capacity, back pain, knee pain, and vacation? Then you see that there’s a wind advisory and you decide to … Continue reading →

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The cats that won’t shut up.

Posted on 25/01/2015 by Sally

I guess I’ll write about this, because I can’t concentrate on anything else. I’m sitting here, listening to Haggis’ every other minute meow, letting us know that it’s EAT:30!!!! Don’t forget! I should EAT NOW! He’s not as bad as … Continue reading →

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The door has, inevitably, closed.

Posted on 19/09/2014 by Sally

My mom wrote me back, finally, basically telling me that I am always critical of her when I am in therapy, and that she never thinks about my dad unless I bring it up. She then asks if I want … Continue reading →

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The dichotomy

Posted on 14/09/2014 by Sally

The elation of conquering fears, my body, miles vs. the sadness of thinking about my mom: sometimes they compete for attention. I am sitting here writing this feeling the highest high because I feel like a runner again today, but … Continue reading →

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Another ending.

Posted on 13/09/2014 by Sally

I wrote this to my mom, and she hasn’t replied. I wonder if she will. I don’t think she is capable of allowing herself to open up at all, and therefore move forward. It hurts my feelings, but there is … Continue reading →

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I think about you every day, dear sallyism.

Posted on 10/07/2014 by Sally

I  just never actually spend any time with you. Today I just wanted to pop in and say hello to myself. Looks pretty good, here. You’re holding up well in spite of the neglect. Earlier, I got the third and … Continue reading →

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